I am not a nurse.

been a while…

So I’ve been busy. Doing nothing. Since starting second year I’ve tried to be a student as much as possible, which involves alot of sleeping and alot of drinking. This is because next week I am back on placement. I have mixed feelings, I’m not scared of the work; God knows I need structure in my life (if I don’t have structure I tend to spend most of my days sat around thinking about how much I hate myself/how much everyone else hates me/about pandas) but I’m more worried about the fact I AM A SECOND YEAR. This means more responsibility and I’m so totally unprepared and I don’t know what to do and how am I supposed to care for people when I can hardly care for myself and I don’t know how to do anything apart from washing patients and doing MUSTs. OH GAWD. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.